Why BaBa loves me more than you do?

Before BaBa came to visit Taiwan, while he was staying or after he left. What's in my mind? i knew fruit was the best food for us. So i always left fruit to give to dada and didi. i did not eat fruit. i did not eat fruit at all, not because i had no money to buy fruit. Especially, in Taiwan, fruit was so fresh and so cheap in Taiwan. But what you think in mind is very important for a person to grow on the spiritual path. So BaBa knows why i don't eat fruit. Because i want to leave the best food to give to dada and didi. When BaBa was staying in Taiwan, what happened? i asked BaBa to give me His samskara. BaBa did not have samskara, then, whose samskara? BaBa's devotee's samskra. i knew BaBa's devotee like to give all their bad samskra to BaBa. So i asked BaBa to give me some of those samskra He required from His devotee to me. So, i decided to do something-- i would not touch him physically. i would not give him my samskara. i would not let him to take my samskara. i told BaBa. i said:"BaBa, i have my ego, this ego is to suffer my own samskara, i will not let you to suffer for me. i will not ask for the last grace. i will burn my own samskara even i have to come back again and again." Later, in his speech, i found out he even change his philosophy. You could read s.s. the first vol, a few chapters in the beginning. You knew what He said. Later in His darshan, He said, "Being a devotee, you should asked for and suffered for others' samskara." Very clearly to me, i knew He was listening to my prayer. During p.c., i even had a mantra fight with Him. Of course, He need to use His occult power to win me for His wish to come true.