Can not Be With Him Long

In 20 years, i found out if a person has been closing to me for a few months. He would develop a "read mind" sense. i noticed the difference when i was with Him physically. i developed a lot of different kind of power. i thought that's the reason why he did not want me to be with him physically for too long. When you went up to certain level of spirituality, it may take scientist to study for the next hundreds or even thousands of years.

Why BaBa loves me more than you do?

Before BaBa came to visit Taiwan, while he was staying or after he left. What's in my mind? i knew fruit was the best food for us. So i always left fruit to give to dada and didi. i did not eat fruit. i did not eat fruit at all, not because i had no money to buy fruit. Especially, in Taiwan, fruit was so fresh and so cheap in Taiwan. But what you think in mind is very important for a person to grow on the spiritual path. So BaBa knows why i don't eat fruit. Because i want to leave the best food to give to dada and didi. When BaBa was staying in Taiwan, what happened? i asked BaBa to give me His samskara. BaBa did not have samskara, then, whose samskara? BaBa's devotee's samskra. i knew BaBa's devotee like to give all their bad samskra to BaBa. So i asked BaBa to give me some of those samskra He required from His devotee to me. So, i decided to do something-- i would not touch him physically. i would not give him my samskara. i would not let him to take my samskara. i told BaBa. i said:"BaBa, i have my ego, this ego is to suffer my own samskara, i will not let you to suffer for me. i will not ask for the last grace. i will burn my own samskara even i have to come back again and again." Later, in his speech, i found out he even change his philosophy. You could read s.s. the first vol, a few chapters in the beginning. You knew what He said. Later in His darshan, He said, "Being a devotee, you should asked for and suffered for others' samskara." Very clearly to me, i knew He was listening to my prayer. During p.c., i even had a mantra fight with Him. Of course, He need to use His occult power to win me for His wish to come true.